Jangan Bersedih Adik

I remember vividly...back to those days...march 2006 when i was about to take my SPM result...
for me...SPM was everything...it was about life or death...if i screw it..then i'll screw my life...that was my thought...i remember the journey to my school(MRSM Taiping) that usually took only a lil while seems soooo darn long and un-endless...everyone kept their mouth shut(xcep mama) and i kept telling myself...im gonna be okay..

dup..dap..dup..dap...dupdapdupdap...the board is there...and my name is written sumwhere over there...and im about to see my name...and the whole world had already known im a failure...and then suddenly out of no where..1 of my fren came to me..."congratz peah!!!ko dapat 10A1!!"
DAMN!!!u liar!dan aku pon berlari2 anak mencari angka giliranku...A1..A1..A1..A1...damn...this isnt right...check angka giliran lagi...ok...A1...A1....A1...A1..10x...yup...dat was really me...i was truly happy...extremely happy...my life arent screwed after all... i was soo happy and i hug bapak and mama....dat was the first time i saw bapak menangis kegembiraan...i remember what he said,"hilang rasenye sume penat lelah bapak selama ni hantar ambek sha g skolah...segale yang bpk habiskan tuk sha...ase cam da berbalas..."yes...that's what he said to me...he had soo much dream for me...and always proud of me...my bapak...

5 years later(today)...my sister's turn plak tuk jalani bende yang same...but this time,its different...she went there alone...without bapak or mama...without anybody to accompany her...or being with her for the better and the worst of it...without me either(how i wish i can be there too)..
But here is me, sister...i want u to know that im always proud of u...with ur strength, and courage...u will go far in ur life...u juz own that determination that i could possibly never have....u shud know that u r special, coz i've never seen u gave up...i will always love you...and after 5 years..that paper doesnt mean anythin anymore...it doesnt make u special, nor make u any successful without you pushing urself...i will pray for you, and may the best be for you...and if bapak is here...he will say,"xpela bushuk2 bpk...jgn sedih2..yaya dah buat yang terbaik kn..lepas ni yaya berusaha lagi...jum mlm ni kite kua mkn celebrate..hihihii...".pastu tarik2 hidung yaya and goyang2 pale yaya cam kocak buah kelape tu sambil buat bunyik..."klok..klok..klok..."hik..
jangan bersedih adik...kakak always here for you...love u my sister...my little angel...

P/s: its a lot easier not to be me, sister...u gonna love ur life=)

*Fairies For Fatehah*

 Cute fairies i bought from Ailwee Cave last winter..i hope these Irish fairies can bring u charms and happiness....

I didnt get the chance to do this on your birthday...sumone took my lighter, accidentally loses 1 of the fairy...etc..etc.....and finally i managed to find it all today...This is specially for my beloved Fatehah which i called her Tehu...Tehu!!!saye sayang kamu tahu!!!

Lemme tell you a bit about our story...we've known each other from our previous college....she is a very...VERY... happy-go-lucky person who loves to smile...has great teeth...and secretive...on all of a sudden, i became her bestfren...we sat together in the class (the back-benchers), ate lunch,dinner n breakfast together....pendek kate, we were together around the clock...we shared stories...secrets...and our favourite past time was.....GARU2.....i know..whenever she is upset...she will come to me and ask me to rub and garu2 her back(my little kitty)...and when im sad...(which were quite often then and she-knew-why)i'll ask her to do the same for me...she is always there whenever i need a shoulder to cry on...Tehu is like a sponge,she absorbs all the sadness within me without saying anything...she is a MIRACLE...

So Tehu..I light these candles just for you, to celebrate your bufday this year...

 

Blow the candles with your wishes...Hope the fairies will listen to you and makes ur dream come true.... I pray to Allah....to bring you much3!! HAPPINESS this year and for the years coming...permudahkan jalan hidup Tehu, and always love you..semoge Tehu disayangi oleh sume orang...and above everything, provide you with the most inner strengths...sumenye tuk Tehu...

I want you to know that i will always be your bestfren...i wont turn my back on you, i will always listen to you, and i will forever love you...i miss you and i hope that the time run so that we can see each other someday and u can cross your Bucket List no. 4=)

I personally captured this fairy cause i know u love mother earth...so this might be your favourite fairy...hehehee...u r the earth u know that?you are the calming soil, very humble, but yet, you're the essence of life...

 

And this fairy's magic wand will make all your dream come true...

Last but not least....those flames are me...whenever u r in the dark Tehu....i'll burn myself for you...so that you can see the way...hehee...i know its a bit hyperbolic...but i do burn the my mid-nyte oil completing this entry...hik...I love u sooo damn much.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEHU!!!!!!

P/S: Shed your tears sayang...it's the high time for us all to move forward....remember wad you said to me? "u do wad you need to do...dont ever look back."  

Its ironic jugak Peah jumpe bende ni lepas I wrote all this...Tehu bacela..