for me...SPM was everything...it was about life or death...if i screw it..then i'll screw my life...that was my thought...i remember the journey to my school(MRSM Taiping) that usually took only a lil while seems soooo darn long and un-endless...everyone kept their mouth shut(xcep mama) and i kept telling myself...im gonna be okay..
dup..dap..dup..dap...dupdapdupdap...the board is there...and my name is written sumwhere over there...and im about to see my name...and the whole world had already known im a failure...and then suddenly out of no where..1 of my fren came to me..."congratz peah!!!ko dapat 10A1!!"
DAMN!!!u liar!dan aku pon berlari2 anak mencari angka giliranku...A1..A1..A1..A1...damn...this isnt right...check angka giliran lagi...ok...A1...A1....A1...A1..10x...yup...dat was really me...i was truly happy...extremely happy...my life arent screwed after all... i was soo happy and i hug bapak and mama....dat was the first time i saw bapak menangis kegembiraan...i remember what he said,"hilang rasenye sume penat lelah bapak selama ni hantar ambek sha g skolah...segale yang bpk habiskan tuk sha...ase cam da berbalas..."yes...that's what he said to me...he had soo much dream for me...and always proud of me...my bapak...
5 years later(today)...my sister's turn plak tuk jalani bende yang same...but this time,its different...she went there alone...without bapak or mama...without anybody to accompany her...or being with her for the better and the worst of it...without me either(how i wish i can be there too)..
But here is me, sister...i want u to know that im always proud of u...with ur strength, and courage...u will go far in ur life...u juz own that determination that i could possibly never have....u shud know that u r special, coz i've never seen u gave up...i will always love you...and after 5 years..that paper doesnt mean anythin anymore...it doesnt make u special, nor make u any successful without you pushing urself...i will pray for you, and may the best be for you...and if bapak is here...he will say,"xpela bushuk2 bpk...jgn sedih2..yaya dah buat yang terbaik kn..lepas ni yaya berusaha lagi...jum mlm ni kite kua mkn celebrate..hihihii...".pastu tarik2 hidung yaya and goyang2 pale yaya cam kocak buah kelape tu sambil buat bunyik..."klok..klok..klok..."hik..
jangan bersedih adik...kakak always here for you...love u my sister...my little angel...
P/s: its a lot easier not to be me, sister...u gonna love ur life=)
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